I know it has been awhile since I posted. I feel like I have a lot to say, but sometimes it’s just hard to get it out.
It’s always something; one thing after another. I often feel like I could burst from everything I feel, think, and hold inside. Yet, when I try to express it in words, I often get so overwhelmed that I go blank. I can’t be the only one dealing with a family member that has dementia that feels this way.
There have been times I sat down, ready to write a post and honestly I fell asleep at the computer. I don’t sleep long. But I just get so tired.
Sometimes exhaustion from dealing with family, life, work, and everything connected to my father’s dementia makes it impossible for me to get my words out. Sometimes I just feel so stressed I cannot find the words. I get tired. I get frustrated. Sometimes when I am feeling overwhelmed or frustrated, I think, “Why bother posting? Is anyone even reading? Is it helping anyone?”
The thing is, I know, that when I am able to express my thoughts and feelings it does help me; even if no one is listening. I do hope that at some point, some of my ramblings will help someone to know they are not alone or that what they are feeling is okay.
The funny thing is I sat down to update on how things have been going with my dad. As you can see this post ended up being something quite different. I guess I just needed to say what I said.
As for a quick update on my dad:
He continues to have serious health problems, more issues with dementia, and still does not believe anything is wrong with him. We have had some ups & downs… so goes life with dementia.