Holidays.. Special events… Various events and special occasions and dates still come around as usual after the loss of a parent. You can’t stop it. You know different times or days may be a struggle and you try to mentally prepare yourself. No matter how prepared you try to be, … Continue reading
I knew the day was coming. I had been trying to mentally prepare myself for it. As I sit here, I realize, no matter how much I tried to prepare myself, today is yet another emotional hurdle I will need to get through. Today would have been my dad’s birthday. … Continue reading
Death. It is not nice or pretty. It is not a pleasant subject to think about or to discuss. Whether we like it or not, death is inevitable. We can not avoid it. We can not run or hide from it. We have to endure it at some point of … Continue reading
On Monday November 3, 2014, my dad passed away. I am trying to find some comfort in knowing that he is no longer suffering. But, it is hard. I will continue this blog. It may take some time for me to focus enough to put my memories, thoughts, and feelings … Continue reading
Have I already mentioned that I hate dementia? Oh yes, I’m sure I have. It is something that comes pouring out of me quite often. We had seemed to reach a point that my dad was finally back to trusting me. He had been able to see past the blinding … Continue reading
Recently I got a call about my dad. I was informed that the nursing home was once again having to switch his room. Awhile back they moved him because of constant arguing and cussing between him and his roommate. They fought about everything. It got to the point the nursing … Continue reading
I know it has been awhile since I posted. I feel like I have a lot to say, but sometimes it’s just hard to get it out. It’s always something; one thing after another. I often feel like I could burst from everything I feel, think, and hold inside. Yet, … Continue reading
Since I last posted my dad had to spend a few more nights in the hospital. That was a mess. Being as I am just feeling tired and kind of down right now, that will be a post for another day. My dad continues to have more health problems. He … Continue reading
Sometimes I feel like a terrible person. It seems like I keep going through cycles of having the same conversation with my stepmother. I usually feel so bad after these conversations. She knows that my father has dementia. It has been explained to her that it cannot be cured like … Continue reading
Am I the only one or do others who have a parent with dementia ever wonder, “What if this happens to me”? I admit it. I do wonder if I will end up dementia. What will happen to me? Will anyone want to take care of me? Will I do … Continue reading